I can accept you do not have a fetish for big boobs.
I cannot accept it's not a fetish.
The reason I cannot accept it's not a fetish is entirely anecdotal to myself and my own desires. I simply do not find someone with breasts as small as a C cup attractive. A woman with a chest that small is as attractive to me as a sandwich is. Doesn't matter how great the rest of their features are, how good they are at foreplay/teasing/romance etc. if they lack breasts, it simply does nothing for me.
All my favourite positions have the breasts visible. I love dirty talk that focuses on how huge the woman's breasts are. I absolutely adore burying my face into some big fat tits while sucking their nipples, and I love to squeeze and fondle breasts. Take that off limits and sex simply isn't as enjoyable.
When I first met my current partner, she was a GG cup. Over time, she grew to a J cup, and I absolutely adored every single time she got refitted. Even though the growth was extremely slow, and virtually imperceptible, the knowledge that her boobs were bigger was incredibly arousing. The difference between the day before a fitting and the day of a fitting was absolutely nothing, but somehow just knowing that 'letter-go-up' filled me with lust.
She later lost some of that and went down to a HH. A single cup size reduction, arguably a correction on an earlier mis-fitting, or the difference in measurements of two different brands. Again, completely imperceptible, but still somehow demoralising to me. In numerical terms only, her boobs had shrunk, yet I was dejected for it because I was, and still am, obsessed with the quantifiable hugeness of her chest. Despite HH being in the large sizes, I still fantasise about her growing even more, and wish she would keep growing to beyond what's practical for everyday life. If she woke up tomorrow with a pair of P cups it would be a nightmare for her in terms of practicality, but I would find it impossible not to want to do her every which way possible.
And even to this day, despite having been with my partner for over a decade, and loving her now more than I have ever loved anyone, knowing that I want to spend the rest of my life with this incredible woman, I still know if there's anything that would see me cheat on her, it's going to be a woman with boobs so much bigger than hers. Even just a woman with a pair of K's hitting on me would be enough to make me consider throwing away what's been the best relationship I've ever had, just for some bigger boobs. But I can't help but think this, even though I would prefer not to think like this.
I genuinely wish I had big boobs as a preference and didn't fetishize them. It would make life so much easier to not fall over myself every time I saw a pair of gigantic tits in public. It would be so much better to not constantly crave bigger and bigger sizes and fantasies of larger breasts that won't ever happen. It would be so much simpler if I could just enjoy my partner for her entire body, and not be so focused on one single area, sometimes even to her annoyance.
But at the end of the day, I am a completely shallow bastard who needs big boobs for his sexual pleasure. Can't get off without at least a pair of G's visible, not at all interested in the 'most attractive women' who are smaller, and constantly wishing for impractical sizes. And I've tried, lord knows I've tried. I've dated smaller women, I've abstained from busty porn to see if I can "reset" myself. I've even held off masturbating entirely just to see if I get horny enough to want the B cups you're able to get off to, and none of it works. I can't switch off my need for big boobs for sexual release, any more than a gay guy can be aroused by a vagina. I'm stuck needing big boobs to get off, it's part of my sexuality, and if that doesn't make it a fetish, then I don't even know what the word fetish means.
And that's why I refuse you notion that this is not a fetish, and is just some evolutionary preference. Because I know I do not work that way, and I know I am not alone in not working that way. If you can work that way, great, I'm glad for you, it must be nice to be able to be satiated with more readily available sizes. But that's not me, that's not my life, and that's not how my fetish works.
